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by Peter van Helvoort

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1.
I always have to be right, but you know I don't want to fight anymore. And, maybe I'm not feeling like I should, maybe I should check under the hood. Are we good? So, let's get out of here, so I can be someone else. I don't want to be alone, but you won't pick up the phone. Somehow I always end up wrong, the truth is out there and it's my songs, but not for long. Staring at myself for vanity's sake, trying to get the jump before you can take me home. Take me home. So, let's get out of here, so I can be someone else. And, I don't want to be alone, but you won't pick up the phone. Anywhere but here will do, 'cause I don't want to be alone. Now I'm repeating myself again, but what can you do? Yeah, I feel lost too. Do you feel lost too? Man, I feel for you. I need to get found soon, 'cause I feel lost too. So, let's get out of here, so I can be someone else. And, I don't want to be alone, but you won't pick up the phone. Anywhere but here will do, 'cause I don't want to be alone. Now I'm repeating myself again, but what can you do? Yeah, I feel lost too.
2.
YWBM 02:41
You will be mine, in due time I'll hold you close. I'll call you down to feel your breath, praise you 'till it's real. I'll call you down, to make you mine. I'll call you down to feel your breath, praise you 'till it's real. You won't let go, I've worshiped from above and below. I call your name to turn your head and you take it on the cheek. I've called you names, to fool myself. I call your name to turn your head and you take it on the cheek. I don't know, why I go to such great lengths. To bring you down and keep you there... put you on a leash. To bring you down, down here with me. To bring you down and keep you there, put you on a leash.
3.
You said you saw a doctor, it turns out that was a lie Then I caught you smoking outside of the bar one night. You thought you were living, but you were dying one breath at a time. You thought I'd forgiven, but we didn't have that much time. Saw you off that morning, just like any other time. Then I got to thinking that maybe something's not right. So, I called everyone I knew, said, "Have you seen my man?" Then I hopped in my car to prove that I'm not insane. You thought you were living, but you were dying one breath at a time. You thought I'd forgiven, but we didn't have that much time. I saw your ghost later on that day, I'd never been so close to death - I'm dying but I've got to stay. You thought you were living, but you were dying one breath at a time. You thought I'd forgiven, but we didn't have that much time
4.
Sundowning 03:01
When your sun comes up I might just let you down. If my Sunday's Best ain't good enough, you won't be seeing me around. Cause when we're breaking up or coming down I'm your dog in the pound. When your sun sets on me I might just come around I'm... Sundowning, when your sun goes down, I don't feel like myself. When your sun goes down, I think I'm somebody else. When your moon comes out I won't feel no pain. While we're moonlighting as prized-fighters I'll call at you. Cause you're faking left, you know I'm right, bells ringing in our ears. When your moon comes out I might just reappear I'm... Sundowning, when your sun goes down, I don't feel like myself. When your sun goes down, I think I'm somebody else. I'm not myself, I'm somebody else. I'm sorry babe, I'm feeling off tonight I'm... Sundowning. When your sun goes down, I don't feel like myself. When your sun goes down, I think I'm somebody else.
5.
It's no use, nostalgia's got your number. You're in a living hell where you're always missing summer. It's no big deal, nostalgia while you slumber. You're living in a dream where you're always missing someone. Stop me if you've heard this one before, but fighting your memories is a cold war. It's no use, nostalgia stole your thunder. You're living in a hell where you're always missing something. Do you remember me? 1983. I remember you. 1992. Stop me if you've heard this one before, but fighting your memories is a cold war. Do you remember me? 1983. I remember you. 1992. Stop me if you've heard this one before, but fighting your memories is a cold war.
6.
I just signed another petition, and it really got me to thinking. About how I'm so tired of clicking all my troubles away these days. I'm just another name on your list, On your list of fools. You only want my money, I feel I'm being used. I think I'm being used, you only want my money. Hope you don't mind my resistance, because it's really got me feeling indifferent. Because I'm so full of something, I'm full of shit, but I won't quit, at least not today, oh no. I'm just another name on your list, On your list of fools. You only want my money, I feel I'm being used. I think I'm being used, you only want my money.
7.
Tried & True 03:17
Good Catholics doing bad things, Christmas mass to keep you clean. I bet you don't see those motherfuckers again this year. Good Catholics doing bad things, there they are waiting in the wings. Black and blue, oh baby, they're coming for you, and there's nothing you can do. Tried and true you know it's nothing new, bad things only happen to you. Black and blue you know it's nothing new, good things never happen to you. Bad Catholics doing good things, they're singing along to the wrong hymns. I think they worship rock and roll, God save their souls. Good people living bad lives, the taxman and the picket line. Black and blue, oh baby, they're coming for you, and there's nothing you can do. Tried and true you know it's nothing new, bad things only happen to you. Black and blue you know it's nothing new, good things never happen to you. Good Catholics doing bad things, they're judging you from the wings. Black and blue, oh baby, they're coming for you and there's nothing you can do. Tried and true you know it's nothing new, bad things only happen to you. Black and blue you know it's nothing new, good things never happen to you.
8.
Down On me 03:25
When's this band gonna end? And when did I begin to get this jaded? I hate it. When's this weather going to change? It won't stop snowing in my brain. I hate it. That's an understatement. Holy wars are raging and I'm afraid, of the ice caps melting and the end of days. But still, you never come down on me. Where do you find the strength to suffer through this fool's embrace? I hate it, when I get this vacant. And, what's the point of making up if permanence is my crux? But we made it, and I don't hate it. Our freedom's fading and I'm afraid, of privacy invasion and an early grave. But still, you never come down on me. When's this band gonna start? And when did I stop speaking from the heart? I hate it, I'm fading. The markets are crashing and I'm afraid, of our drinking water and the boogie man. But still, you never come down on me. When's this song gonna end? When there's nothing left to defend.
9.
You know the girls I used to see? Well, I hope they never love anyone but me. I hope they never have another friend, because I told them things I shouldn't have. Don't get me started on past regrets, Keep your mouth shut and don't forget. Hearing whispers in every room, My paranoia is in full bloom. What are they telling everyone about me? The shit I talk, oh so constantly. Don't believe what you've heard, It's my word over their word. I swear I'm telling you the truth, man. What have I got to lose, man? You know the guys from my band? Well, I hope they never play again. I hope they never strum another chord, Because it's my fault that they're gone. What are they telling everyone about me? The shit I talk, oh so constantly. Don't believe what you've heard, It's my word over their word. I swear I'm telling you the truth, man. What have I got to lose, man?
10.
Wanderlust 03:05
Living fast is in the past and Shangri-La's your tragic flaw. Dying young’s a smoking gun, you’re not living ‘til you’re 21. Maybe when I’m old as you, I will start to think things through, Or maybe it’ll be too late and I’ll be at heaven’s gate. If I let you down will you pick me up? And make me drink from your loving cup. If I pick you up will you turn me down? I’ll get lost so you’ll get found. Wanderlust is fucking up and graceland’s a wasteland. Maybe when I’m overseas I will start to feel free. Or maybe it’ll be the same, except no one will know my name. If I let you down will you pick me up? And make me drink from your loving cup. If I pick you up will you turn me down? I’ll get lost so you’ll get found.

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May 2015-May 2016.

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released September 29, 2017

I did my usual stuff, Jon Lubanski graciously drummed, Matt Snell engineered those drums, Paula Perri and Danielle Leger helped with some singing, The Hoff did some magic here and there, Weston ruined my record, and LP, HM, RLL, MR, JVH, RO, LK helped with a bit more singing.

Photo by: Jeffrey Michael Van Helvoort.

Special thanks to FACTOR for their support on this recording.

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Peter van Helvoort Hamilton, Ontario

Musical ghost of past and present. Singer/Guitarist of Teenage Kicks & Darling Congress. Bassist of The Glorious Sons.

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